Week 22A — Tomorrow’s Joy

Week 22A — Tomorrow’s Joy

This has been a week of emotions for sure.  For the past three months, I’ve been working on releasing stored emotions that have been interfering with my physical health with the help of a gifted healer. A few weeks ago, I was finally able, after 11 years, to start releasing the grief from the death of my daughter, Kathryn, or Kate, as I called her.  I say death, but it was more like birth and death together since she was stillborn at full-term.  I  sang happy birthday to her as I held her before she was taken away to be prepared for burial.

Today is the 11th anniversary of her birth/death.  Coincidentally, or, perhaps not, the days of the week are exactly as they were the weekend I labored to deliver her — the 5th and 6th of March.   She had Down Syndrome, and, although members of my family said that this was a blessing that I did not have to raise her with her physical and mental difficulties, it was no consolation for me.  The only consolation I had was God’s peace and love, which surrounded me during this very difficult time in my life.

Now, I am sure that this MKMMA course has been instrumental in helping me come to the place where I am able to do this very important healing work and I am grateful.  The Gal in the Glass poem has helped as well as the healthy self-love that this program engenders. Understanding how thoughts, emotions and actions work together is very powerful.  I think that one of the most powerful lessons is how we can master our emotions, which is the topic of this month’s readings.

I work with essential oils and have a device that can connect with my body’s energetic field and therefore help me know which oils to use for my physical and emotional state.  Tonight I scanned for Console, which is the Comforting Blend.  As I sat in the bath with the Console blend all around me, crying, it occurred to me that this pain that I felt was not going to kill me after all, and that letting it come out was very necessary.   I also realized that the chapter in the Og Mandino book we are reading this month, is very relevant to what happened to me with Kate.  I just love this sentence: “Like the flowers, today’s full bloom of joy will fade and wither into despondency, yet I will remember that as today’s dead flower carries the seed of tomorrow’s bloom, so, too, does today’s sadness carry the seed of tomorrow’s joy.”  I am sure that releasing these strong negative emotions will create room for more good ones, like Joy, and many others.

Twisted With Joy

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  1. Erika Smith March 7, 2016 at 12:28 pm - Reply

    Lesley I was extremely moved by your writing and the courage it took to express yourself in this way. You have inspired me in ways you could never imagine. Thank you so much for sharing and I look forward to seeing you again soon.

  2. masterkeybritta March 7, 2016 at 10:15 pm - Reply

    I hear so much joy in your words.
    and what a wonderful daughter you had even though she was here only for a short time
    thank you for sharing.

  3. Nancy O March 8, 2016 at 10:42 pm - Reply

    Blessings to you as you honor Kate with your tears and your healing.

  4. robertmasterkey March 12, 2016 at 5:01 am - Reply

    It is great to hear you release the old and build with the new. Thanks for sharing…!

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