Several times this week I thought about my blog post and had at least two subjects to talk about, but now, I cannot remember either of them! Interesting that this week’s readings, Chapter 17 of Haanel, is about the power of concentration. I found myself procrastinating every time I thought about sitting down to write my blog this week. Yes, I was distracted by upcoming travel and my birthday (today!), but again, these are just excuses.
I have not been doing all the homework exercises this week as I have in the past, and I think my discouragement was part of my reluctance to write my post. In last week’s survey, I was asked if I am happier than I was before I started this program. The answer from me was a big “YES!”. The one thing that I do every day is to say the affirmation “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy!” and I think just doing this one simple thing has helped tremendously.
Something else to note today — as I had a birthday lunch with my mother, who was openly critical about my choice to start massage school this March, I realized that I would choose not to be upset over her criticism. Instead, I said a quick prayer, asked Jesus to help me get through the lunch, smiled, and said well, I understand that is how you feel about it but that is not how I feel. I then changed the conversation and we were able to have a somewhat pleasant meal together. Wow! What a difference from four months ago! The self-confidence I have now is so much different than before. So even though I have not been “perfect” at doing all of the exercises, I think enough has taken effect for me to have that response.
Haanel says that “ease and perfection are gained by repetition”. You got that right!